Relationship Non Negotiables
It is time for me to get specific about what I being in relationship looks like for and with me.
My Neurodivergence is always going to lead in my relationships moving forward.
Right now the persons who seem to take that without care are people who seem to think that this is a joke, they can use me while lying/relying on my name for clout, profit and power.
I am 5 in autizzy years. A toddler.
I am often met with “me too”, but the relationship then proceeds within the boundaries of neurotypical harm and standards.
It is necessary for me to say that I have a deep understanding of diagnosis, self diagnosis and what that looks like for many of us who find ourselves in marginalized bodies with late diagnosis.
And there is no one way.
Over the last 5 years of me learning about and moving through my diagnosis I have recognized a pattern, that for some recognizing that they fall under the neurodivergent umbrella, is enough.
They use it as an excuse to avoid accountability
There is no need or want to further understand and undo the ways that personality has been misinformed, once there is a recognition of diagnosis.
I have actively been working to fully unmask and to heal and restore those aspects of myself and my personality that were destroyed and warped as a result of neurotypical grooming.
🐚I can no longer live my life how I was before 2020 and I haven’t been.
🐚I can no longer afford to squeeze and contort my brain on behalf of the culture.
🐚I can no longer abide Black cultural isms in relationship because “that’s just the way it has always been”
🐚tradition for tradition sake that is now tradition for trauma sake. I can no longer abide.
🐚I am not a woman and I do not want to be in relationship with women who do not understand that in full.
🐚It is not something you can simply bypass or ignore about me to simply fold back into the feminine.
🐚The things that I have engaged on behalf of the binary feminine are pieces of myself that will always be tender and worn in reclamation.
🐚There is harm via religion and other binary modalities that were done to an extreme, and all for the ego of cis men.
🐚Niceties and kiki are not something I do.
They are distractions used to hide red flags in engagement.
🐚I do not want to be in vapid, empty, performative relationship with you. I don’t care about celebrity and the fake people you place on pedestals.
🐚COVID is a non negotiable for me. So if you negotiate with it in your life and with your families life, specifically with children, it’s a no go.
🐚If you mask sometimes you should expect our relationship to be sometimesy.
🐚Right now, you have to be neuro divergent and unmasked, working with you to center for disability, to be in relationship with me.
🐚I want relationships with intensity, depth and emotions, challenge, expression, evolution, change, learning, and above all depth of care and intention.
🐚I wanna commune over meals that we poured our souls in to and that cause us to outpour more, that then effervesces into real time change.
🐚I wanna put my hands into the dirt with you.
🌀I wanna float lakes and rivers, land puddles, as ancestors and spirits wash us anew.
🐚
🐚I wanna trip the light fantastic to new neural pathways and healing where our divergences shine free.
But let me not wax to poetic because I wanna be clear. I wanna get to work with you but on grounded, fertile footing.
🔥I don’t linger, I am fire. Literally. Tropically.
Aries
Leo rising
Sagittarius moon
🌊sidereally all wata
pisces
cancer rising
scorpio moon
🐚I am movement and flow and cannot sit stagnant while you figure out you at the expense of the work I have done on me.
Like actually hear me.
🐚If you want to be in relationship with me I am the person you reach out to when it is time to execute.
Specifically in working or business relationship.
I don’t meander and pander.
🔥Fire Moves
🌊Wata Moves
Fire and Wata together creates holy spirit
motion
♨️steam powered locomotive tings
I am energetic push and thrust
not
well “if we must”
I also know the smell of shit well
even them especially fancy kinds
that smell like lilacs but soon descend to
roses and boo boo.
🐚My discernment often precedes me. Moving forward my ancestors lead me to those I should be working with spiritually.
🐚Ya’lls divinations are half fed by spirit and the other half led by hyper binary discretion, deception, manipulation, and theft. Keep it away from me.
🐚I cannot play games, I do not create lines for people to read between.
🐚I will never pander to the fragile peoples, that you all place yourself in false alignment too.
🐚Being in relationship means direct and clear ALWAYS.
🐚I no longer have the capacity or the mental fortitude to code-switch myself to oblivion.
🐚You cannot present yourself to me as the same culture that has created some ting of you that is folded up and kept away. A forgotten ting.
🐚I am Queer above all else.
🐚That LGBTQIA +!marketing machine performance that has become everyone. KEEP IT AWAY FROM ME.
🐚I do not need to exist within the extremes of binary or trans hyperfemininity or masculinity.
🐚Stepping into new gender identity means healing it all. And too many of ya’ll are still centered in and using socialized harm to prop up your new life.
🐚Keep your kink culture away from me.
Cosplaying the extremities and sickness of the yt imagination and power in order to get off ain’t sexy to me.
🐚Super fats, small fats, medium fats. Ya’ll
got it. I want nada to do with ya’ll and your mean girl communities.
🐚The same can be said for those using transness as a binary tool of weaponized socialized identity.
🐚Cis Men this absolutely shouldn’t need to be said, but it does indeed need to be said, not now or NEVER.
Ya’ll are dangerous. All of you.
🐚Black cis men. Ya’ll are dangerous. All of you.
Specifically Ron Curry and his piss poor brothers.
🐚Vanilla Ice Thrice. Ya’ll are dangerous. ALL OF YOU. but ye Karen Kathy Thrices. Working with me means you will be vetted over and over and over again.
You will never be trusted in full. EVER. You will be treated with the same fear, reserve, and curtness, that my people have been met with for lifetimes.
🐚If you are a part of the beige brigade biracial or mixed race and you default to calling yourself Black because of clout & culture while erasing the privileged other in your genetics. Go AWAY.
🐚If you are light skinned and understanding and undoing colorism isn’t a centered part of your daily life. Go AWAY.
And everyone else is on permanent notice.
I am brand new, when I am a more seasoned me, tings will change.
You should never expect me to be the same person I was moments ago, today, last week, or last year.
My god is change.
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